But I'm Thankful

Where did the year go?

It seems like only yesterday

I was looking into your eyes

But is has been a year

I didn't know when we talked that day

That it would be our last conversation

I didn't know when I got your heater

That your body was already shutting down

I didn't know when I prepared your lunch

That it would be your last meal

I didn't know when I brought out your oxygen

That your breathing would become so much easier

I didn't know as I prepared your blankets and pillows on the couch

That it would soon become your death bed

I didn't know when I looked into your eyes,

kissed you good night and told you I Love You

That it would be that last time

I didn't know I would never hear your voice again

Or see your eyes, or watch you smile

I didn't know the plan God had for our Christmas Eve morning

I didn't know that I would wake to find your in the arms of Jesus

I didn't know the year that was ahead 

I didn't know how much I would miss you

I didn't know how deeply the pain would affect my life

I didn't know anything then that I know now

But I'm thankful

Thankful that:

You were comfortable 

You were at peace

Your tummy was full

Your bed was prepared

Jesus was waiting and calling your name

I looked into the deep of your eyes

I kissed you good night

I told you I loved you as you did me

For today I can sit and remember you with no regrets

Loving the Great of our 31 years together

And knowing that you are my future

You wait with Jesus until the day He calls my name

We will be reunited again

So many words fill my heart

I Will Always Love You

Are the ones that stick

I am thankful as well

For the friends I have met along this path

The ones who have walked with me for part of it

And those headed in the opposite direction

Each one has played a part in my story

Each one a portion of my healing

And now I turn the page

To a new chapter

I already know the ending

But am looking forward to the details

That lie within the rest of the journey

You are resting in His arms my love

And I will continue on 

Until that great day when we All will Rejoice in Him