Getting Ready

I remember as a young girl

Preparing the night before the first day of school

It was so much fun to lie out

All of my new clothes and to

Decide what I would wear that first day

Everybody in the house would have their little spot

Where their 'new' outfit would await the morning light

We would rise early and

(sharing 1 bathroom between the 5 of us)

(eventually 6 of us)

We would take turns washing up, brushing teeth and hair

And then putting on our new clothes

What an exciting time it was

In some respects I continue to do the same thing

However, it's not to prepare for the first day of school

Or even the first day of work

Now days it's usually to prepare

For a special time to be spent before the Lord

Not the regular day in and day out kind of time before the Lord

But the It's time to set aside some

First day of school time before the Lord

Tuesday will be 16 months since my Mark went to Live with the Lord

I'm kind of jealous you might say

The first year without him was (let's just say) AWFUL

But the depth of grief I felt has subsided

And there are days of joy and

The ability to smile at the memories

Yet, 4 months into this second year

Has its own set of challenges

Mostly, trying to figure out who I am

And what I want to do when I grow up :)

So, I have come to this place

Of preparing

Of getting ready

Of laying out the 'tools'

For the first day of

A Special Time before the Lord

There are Praises to be Offered

Thanksgivings to be Raised

Prayers to be Asked

And answers to Seek

Looking forward to.........